I was just wondering :P cause... I dunno. I just was. It's just weird for me not to talk to you for a whole day... :/ At least it felt like a day.

I was on yesterday, I guess we just weren't on at the same time. Friday... I don't know what happened Friday. *sigh* You ever have that feeling where you want to tell someone something SO bad, but something keeps pushing you back? I hate that feeling so much...

Mmm... yes, but no. I'm just really bad at expressing my feelings so... I usually just deal with whatever I'm holding on to. Which is never good, heh. Still, I'm probably never going to say it. It's just my nature...

Haha, well I always tend to do so xD It's just something where you see that person all the time and you just want to tell them this one little thing, but you feel like it's wrong to say that because they might take it the wrong way.

W-what? How'd you know it was you?! I-I mean... *sigh* I guess I did give pretty obvious hints though... .-.

Well, I guess thats one way to describe me ^^' Well, now you know it's you.. but... you don't know what it is >:3 Even if I know I can tell you it still feels weird. I mean, of course you wouldn't understand since you don't know what I want to say.

No, it doesn't have to do with that.

I'm sure one day they won't care. Hopefully. And yeah, I suppose it is between us ^^ Quite demanding, eh? Well not really, but uh... I suppose I can tell you. Just give me some time...

You're impatient, and I'm patient... heh, we really are quite opposites aren't we... er, I'm changing the subject there, whoops. Depends... how long can you wait for me?

No, I'm not leaving ever again. I couldn't and I wouldn't. Anyway, I gotta go take a shower, tell the other shepherds I'll be back in a bit please.

XD Whoops!

I honestly didn't mean to take that long xP

Are you trying to imply something? >_>

>_> Sure you weren't, darling.

*pokes forehead* Hmph >_>

*pokes nose* ^^ hehe...

Really? Then this will definitely tickle! >:3 *starts poking at your stomach*

Haha, you fail at trying to block xD *retracts my hands*

W-wait, no! My stomach is actually really sensitive >o< *starts laughing uncontrollably* Hahaha!! S-stop! ...Can't... breath...!

*Quietly giggles then gives a bright smile* Haha... ^^

Heh, well don't plan on seeing too much. I'm not the smiling type. (I loved that part xD)

>//^//> I already have to deal with Mother teasing me calling me cute, I don't need you too! It's just... embarrassing...

Ugh, it's just different when you say it! I mean, cause mothers are supposed to tell their children they look cute...

Mmrph... you don't need to know what's wrong! It's just wrong! ...I guess? Well not really, I just-- Ugh! I'm so confused right now! *turns away pursing my lips*

*Looks over shoulder while glaring* Hmph! *turns and stomps my left heel into your stomach* (Then use Xiagus, everyone should be pretty familiar with him.)

(Oh, yeah. Didn't see that part xP) *Sees that stomping on you isn't affecting anything, kneels down and flicks your forehead* Quit laughing, you idiot. It isn't funny!

Gah?! *Falls down* You lunatic! I could've broke something! *sits up and narrows my eyes up and Gaius* Hmph...

(*at not and...) *Sigh* Seriously? Why do we have to talk about that? It's MY love life, not yours, sweet tooth.

Hmm... well ok. I mean, I've been overly curious with you as well. It's not that he 'cheated' on me. Though that's a bit irksome, it's just that I didn't quite feel like I wanted to be in a relationship. I want more than anything to love someone romantically.. but I guess Marc just didn't feel like the 'one'. I still love him though. As a friend now of course.

I didn't really have a point... my words were all over the place to be honest. Ah, I know who you're talking about. I'm sorry...

Gaius... you really bring up the weirdest things. The guys seemed to be in control of what was happening and I felt like I was just in the way. If you would've looked at me straight in the eye at that moment, I had tears brimming my eyes. There's a saying... "You never really know what you have until it's gone"... and I don't want to find that out with you.

Hmph. Whatever, I'm just glad no one saw it. I'm not some cold hearted jerk ALL the time you know, I have feelings...

E-er...w-what?! *awkwardly hugs back surprised at the sudden hug*

Um.. can I ask why? I'm really confused.

Ha! You can say that again! *ahem* Well I guess we're having a 'moment' here aren't we? ...I guess I sorta really kinda like maybe care a lot for you.

Yeah, I remember. What of it?

Er.. what do you mean? I mean the one where you pinned me down or the one were we were alone at the lake?

Oh, that one.. ha.. well alright. I can forget about that, though I don't much think about it anyway. I didn't remember it till just now to be honest. I didn't think much of it anyway since you always seem to do stuff like that...

(Yes, I died for a couple minutes... jk, I was just playing with my puppy. He wanted attention the cute little thing.) Haha, you seem so flustered xD I'll forget about it, don't worry.

Don't mention it. Really, don't.

I don't know either! But it's working on me to be honest xC Nuu.. part of me wants to stay single, but another part of me wants him back xP

>_> You just don't understand...

You think you know more about me then Calme? Calme has known me for 5 years... you: 1 year. Then again, I talk to you for hours... and Calme only like 30 min a day and not talking much on weekends unless we made plans... Hmm.. you might know more about me then him actually .-.

Yeah, I know, but I was still pointing it out. Calme is trans gender so I have to respect it and be open minded like I always am. I still accidentally say 'she' sometimes.. but it's just so hard! Since you've been a girl for the five years I've known you, then BAM! You're a boy.

No, prob. I've been told I'm an odd one. In my friend group I just know I'm the calm and open minded one. Though I can be really random and fun to be around ^^

No, it's fine. I don't get offended by it. It's something I kinda have to accept anyway... having it, that is.

Well... hm... yeah, I guess you are quite lucky ^^' Though when you straight out look at your life you realize how good you have it... I feel like I'm spoiled. For instance: I have a roof over my head, I have friends, I have my whole family around me, I never go hungry... yep. I'm spoiled.

Thank you... that means a lot to me. But I wouldn't want anyone else to suffer with depression like I am right now. Right now though I can say I feel happy ^^ I haven't had a bad moment at all lately. It just feels terrible you know? To be sad all the time, lacking motivation for anything... it's like... you're drowning, but everyone around you is breathing.. ugh, I don't know how to put it.

I'm the baby of the family too! ^^ *sigh* But I don't really like it all the time... cause if my older siblings want something, for example: ask my mom if we can go out to the mall, they tell me to ask cause they think she'll say yes to everything I ask. Which is entirely not true. My mom probably gets more mad at me then any of my other siblings.