nnn please tell me...
heh... thanks.
it wasn't the Sonic i originally intended to draw... but i just thought of doing a "Super Deity version" of my other Sonic and Link.
Nnnn... Okayyyyy...
So I was on a bench then you came over. I was like "Hai sweetheart" then you put your arm around me so I nuzzled into your chest and...
Nnn...
Nnn... F-fine...
Then you started to tickle me under my chin, I was giggling and told you to stop. Thennn... Nnn... We remained eye contact for a while... Thennnn... Nnnnnnnn... We uhm, kissed. Foralongtime... Nnn... And for some reason we were surrounded by flowers and my picked me my favourite flower and put it in my hair. Then we watched the sunset... Nnn...
AAAAAAA WHY WOULD SOMEONE WRITE THAT. HE JUST WANTS TO LIVE A PRIVATE LIFE NOW. IS THAT SO WRONG. AND WHAT HE'S BEING ACCUSED OF I DON'T BLAME HIM.
;-; Nnnnnn... Sorry I just had to. bUT IT WASN'T AIMED AT YOU SINCE YOU WERE QUOTING IT.
I don't know what he's being accused, but if it's ba- ok no...
but seriously... i hope the 'one-directioners' won't dwell on this for too long... he's "still alive" after all...
Well, it is bad... He was accused of cheating on his fiancée and... Something else which will get me a warning.
Nnnn I probably will... At least it's not- no... I'd rather not say.
ughh.. i never thought i'd stick up for HIM of all people... but the media REALLY need to stop poking their noses into 'celeberity' lives...
please... there's no need to linger on that... after-all it's not like he's a better person than you.
That makes me feel down... i really want us both to just be happy... i see happy couples all around me...
but you never seem truely happy...
Does it really have to be this way?
Why...?
I don't want to go through this again...
I've done my best the WHOLE time i've known you, to make you happy... and show you love, show you that i care...
But still i feel i'm only making you feel worse...
w-what am i doing wrong?
I... I...
T-this probably seems really... Idk... But...
I-I don't know if I love as much as I did... I'm sorry... I just... I really don't want to hurt you... But... I... I'm sorry...
Just what have i done?
i don't want to sound rцde here... and please don't take this the wrong way...
But i love you WAY more than 1D or 5sos ever will... They're just bands that make music...
i'm someone you know... Someone who actually LOVES you...
and now you tell me you don't love me as much... do you know how that feels? i do SO much for you..
Who really is better, Luke Hemmings.. or Me?
But WHAT have i done?
i'm making you feel horrible?
if anyone feels horrible here, it should be me...
i now find out that i've pretty much failed you..
You are the ONE girl in this world that i learnt to care for, that i was able to love...
It may irritate me just SLIGHTLY from time to time... but on the whole i've been able to take your huge love for Luke...
i realise that it's something...
...that a lot of girls do, fangirl over a boy from a love band... and that's fine...
but now... is he better than me?
I've been the one who first apologised when we've had arguements... because i've realised that our love is the only true relationship i have in this world... i don't want to lose it...
So why does it seem to be growing weaker...?
Isn't there anyway i can make you happier?
I'm sorry... Okay? I just... I feel like I'm gradually losing you... And it feels like you're pressuring me into being happy rather than helping me bit by bit.
I'm sorry maybe now I'm not the girl you want... I'm sorry if I talk too much about Luke. I'm sorry for being me.
Pressuring you...?
i-i do that...?
i-i'm sorry...
i don't MEAN to... i... i try to help you... there's only so much i can do from over here... but that never stopped me...
i don't mind you liking Luke... if he makes you happy the great... but that's only temporary happiness...
Maybe i'm just that person that can only ever try... but please.. just one... one question...
what can i do to improve?
I... Don't know... A-and I'm sorry if this upsets you but...
Sometimes it feels like you don't care about me... I know you do but sometimes it feels likes you care about idk... A pear more than me...
...You do realise you're the only person on this earth who i actually truely love...right?
I apologise... for sometimes it is hard for me to show that... i've lived most my life being independent.
i REALLY care for you Topia.
i mean that... i never WANT to make you think otherwise.. i know i keep saying that... but it's true...
Tye... I'm sorry... I wish I'd never bought this up...
And of course I love you way more than Luke Hemmings. Yes, I talk and post about him a lot... Because... You're gonna hate this but...
Luke reminds me of you. I don't know why, but he just does. I know you dislike him, but... Idk... I talk about Luke loads because it's like I'm talking about you but no one knows...
And I do love you..
I-i don't h8 that...
we umm... both have blonde hair blue-eyes... right?
I love you too Topesy.
and i mean, i REALLY love you.
I'm sorry for all those times when it never seemed like that. really sorry.
I'm sowwy... I know I'm ungrateful... You do so much for me... I do appreciate it, and I do love you. Even though I DID love you less than I did, I wasn't planning on letting you go... I'll never let you go.
I... Just need to do this since it feels like the appropriate time. Nnn... *Wraps arms around your neck and kisses you intensively... Nnn for a long time*
