Well, silliness aside, I've just been depressed and wanted to wallow. I've been doing NOTHING progressive or productive, I just let it consume me. The thing with Brandon's grandma, I could handle. But now MY grandma is dying, fast. The hospitals there are a bit behind the times (Puerto Rico) and I gave ALL my money I had saved so my dad can see her one last time but I don't get to and it hurts.