Ah, don't worry, Kujo, its going to be alright. We all have lost someone close to us, me, I've already counted to many. I have lost friends, family, ex's, you name it, but you can't let it get you down. They would want you to continue to live on. Be happy Kujo, be happy for yourself. If it was a crush who've you lost, then they didn't get to know how great of a person you truely are, and an artist