I'm so so so sorry, Mark. I wish I had some advice but I don't know what your situation is. All I can tell you is that it WILL get better. I know, you probably hear that a lot, and it may not seem like it will, but trust me. Being a person who has been through really bad depression in my life, I can prove that it gets better if you perservere. You're a great person, Mark. Never forget that.