"… I think … it helps me understand why I want it so desperately." It? "To be my own master. Or maybe something more than that: To be able to … be without a task, and do something beyond asking for another. To live for myself. That … might be what it means to be a person." Is that even possible for you, though? If your task defines even your emotions … "Do you know what a tsukumogami is, Lottie?"