messenger, to make it clear I was moving on from her, I felt I deserved MUCH better than this, I was being manipulated, I had my emotions played against me, and there was even a time where I told her she was #1 in my book and she wanted to know who 2 and 3 were so that she would KILL them and that I would never see them again, I felt physically sick and THREW UP because of that, I could NOT-