I feel soooooooooooooo much sorry for you. I know how it feels to lost a beloved pet.....I lost a lot pets too:´C But I think she´s now in heaven in a good place or she will reborn. (I believe in such things) In that case,you should take a lot care to your other case and talk to someone you trust. Or find someone who cheers you up. When I´m sad, I talk to my Japanese...